Family is everything to Kierstin Crain, but as a newlywed years ago starting her own family wasn't her top priority.
Crain said, "We were just like, ok we're going to take our time and enjoy each other, you know, for the first year or two."
Two years later, despite a busy career and home life, the time had come for children.
But it didn't go as planned, Crain needed help.
Crain said, "After a year of trying and still no results we decided that we'd better start to get serious."
So they did, joining the 14 percent of Utah couples getting help from infertility specialists.
Doctor Andrew Moore at the Utah Center for reproductive medicine said, there is always hope.
Dr. Moore said, "Most causes of infertility are treatable."
In fact, two thirds of Utah couples that complete treatments like IVF, get a baby. So naturally Crain felt it would work for here, but the outcome wasn't the same.
Crain said, "When the IVF nurse called me. I had kind of already prepared myself for the worst, but that didn't minimize the pain."
IVF had failed and Crain was devastated.
She said, "You do feel like, that's kind of my role. And you don't see that happening, to be a mother and everything. Yeah, and it's, it's really difficult."
Difficult enough to drive her into depression.
At least fifty percent of women struggling with infertility, suffer from depression.
Now she is trying to focus on the things she can control while still hoping for a positive outcome someday.
Crain said, "Just hang on to that hope. I know that sounds cliche, but just know that you're loved. And that there are other women out there that you can draw upon for support."